(note: this is probably the first and only time I’ll show a photo like this ever so don’t expect too much)
As you all know, my dad passed away back in October, and it’s been a lot with dealing with the loss of a parent, so here’s how my experience has been.
It seems unfair
My dad passed away almost 2 weeks before my 26th birthday (so that made me 25 when he died), and let me tell you it has been MAJORLY unfair to think about how much he’s going to miss (my commencement, possible milestones like kids and marriage, etc). Another way that it seems unfair is that a lot of people my age or older still have both parents, and to have to live without one of them seems a tad bit unfair as well.
The anger monster
Another thing I’ve experienced in the two and a half months since losing my dad is that I’m angry all the time-at losing him, and at my circumstances. My dad had cancer for five years (around the six month mark after I started blogging), and my naive butt thought that he would beat it, but unfortunately that didn’t happen. The reason why I’m so angry is because I feel robbed of every future opportunity that I could have had with my dad. This includes vacations (which we haven’t taken for five years-around the time my dad got sick), family time, family photos, etc. What I like to call the anger monster has also led to me being angry at generally everything and everyone (not good lol), so I’m currently trying to find ways to deal with that.
You can also find an incredible support group
When my dad was still alive but in his last days, I turned to the Grief Support subreddit and joined the Discord server from there (I had planned on rejoining Discord anyway). The people in the server are incredibly nice and understanding about different types of grief, whether it be human or animal. Everyone I work with has also been understanding as well (because unfortunately grief does things to mess with your mind).
How have you dealt with losing a loved one or pet?